If I had half a penny for everytime i heard when is the album coming out i would be bill gates! well maybe not bill gates lol! but you know what i mean i get asked it alot! well the truth is there has been alot of reasons behind why i havent been putting much material out personal reasons and etc! but one of the main reasons i havent is for the simple fact I DIDN'T WANT TOO! as an artist a key characteristic i cheerish is creativity and when there is a lack of motivation the creativity tends to die! which did! now could i still make hot music? of course! it's a gift i have been given but i don't see the reason of making a songs without a true motive behind it hince " THE LIL WAYNE THEORY" lol! so that's why i could turn down a studio session becaus emy madden created team had a playoff game or i wanted to have a date with vodka and ginger ale. because i wasn't motivated. i haven't even blossomed into my full potential and yet and still i had friends become backstabbers, new friends with hidden motives, and it felt that everybody just wanted a piece or a hand out when i was thinking damn can i get on BET first! lol! indeed i love to help people which can be a major fault sometimes because you get used for granted i felt that i was being used as a trampoline that everybody wanted to jump off of and make a name for themselves! so i just said forget it as i hit RED, GREEN, YELLOW, BLUE on my guitar! lol! but as begin to surround myself again with the people that was with me before everything, curtis, marcus al, john, lj, ed, lee, etc i begin to realize why i ever recorded in the first place which was the simple fact it was FUN! and with that mindstate i recorded a few tracks for instance the ones on the myspace page! the song WEST HIGH HALLWAYS was a simple reminesing track but it did more it brought me back to down to a balance before kiss 103 before josies' despos and etc! back to when i was the shortest one out of the group besides curtis! yeah dawg im taller than you! lol! so with those few recording i was having fun again but there was something missing! and that was a CHALLENGE! i love my city of WICHITA to death but in my mind and heart to take over and come up and get my songs out seemed to be to easy all i needed was something simple and hot, catchy and typical!! and that's is something i could easily do! but i felt i would be depriving myself of reaching my true potential! so where would be a place that has a great music scene but the listeners have a very distinct ear! hmmm? hmm?hhm? let me think! and light flashed and said LAWRENCE!! so i drew up a plan pack my bags and road off to a new city! where im unknown! where i have to start from scratch from handing out cd's and flyers in the streets meeting and greeting with dj's and etc! which is now a new CHALLENGE! so now with that challenge i have developed a new motivation and a new focus that will help me develope into the STAR that everyone predicts me to be!! so now im excited to record again! i got BLEEZE and BRYANT AVANT'S focus back im making incredible music that i am comfortable with i gotta new pep in my step let's just say I'M FEELING BRAND NEW! IT'S A BREATHE OF FRESH AIR! TASTE IT! TASTE IT! IT TASTE GOOD TOO! LOL! so now me and music is back together again and im happier than ever doing something i love to do and have and strong passion for! so i'm laying down my guitar! BECAUSE TO MUSIC I AM NOW FULLY COMMITED TOO! ONCE AGAIN AND FEELS SO SO GOOD! YESSIR!~J.TUCK~
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